I am way too emotional. Just how I am, and it appears it's how I will always be. My girls were not spared this trait, and they have inherited my tendency to be dramatic.
I remember the first time I realized my emotions were perhaps extreme compared to other people. I was watching Dumbo with my family, including my maternal grandmother, who only visited us a few times. I don't know how old I was, but I was young. I was balling my eyes out - heaving - at the part where Dumbo's mommy is imprisoned (so unfair!!! cruel!!!) and is rocking her precious baby in her large elephant ears, the song 'Baby Mine' is playing. My grandmother was shocked at my reaction, and it is still a joke my mom tells to this day. That lullaby became kind of "our song" between my mom and I - in fact, we considered dancing to it together at my wedding (dad was already gone when I got married, so mom and I danced instead) but I knew I'd break down - balling, heaving style - if we did. So we picked the lame "I Hope You Dance" song.
This lullaby is also Taylor's favorite, and I sing it to her every night. Once in awhile, it still chokes me up - but I get brought back to reality real quick when Tatie says, "Mommy, I don't like your voice shaking like that. Sound nice. Ok, start over, this didn't work." Girlfriend has strict tuck-in guidelines, although the routine has gotten so much more enjoyable. I used to have to sing her several lullies, but now only 1 or 2, with extra back scratching time at the end. Bailey loves this song too, but she is smart and has realized that "Down to the River to Pray" has more verses, so she likes that one :)
I digress. My point today is, this small home has three extremely emotional girls in it, and two haven't even experience PMS yet. Kevin needs to either build himself a shed to hide in, buy a bigger house, or "be away on business" at least one week out of every month. God help us all.
Oh sister, it does get harried for a bit as everyone adjusts, but you will adjust and find of rhythm in the cycles, just like everything else.
ReplyDeleteAlso, I didn't think that song was a lame choice. It was as if your mom was singing to you. You both looked beautiful and I cried, exercising my "excessive" emotions in my love for you both!
Finally, I prayed that God would send me a sister so I'd get a longer tuck in like the boys. In the short term (very short) Torey was a pain in the neck with her midnight crying, but the long term benefit has far outweighed that.
Thanks for the kind words about mom and I - it is a precious memory for me. You are blessed to have a sister, and I am so thankful my girls have each other. I pray they are close, as you and Torey still are and will always be :)
DeleteEmMa grace is super emotional when she watches movies where the main character isn't with their mommy or daddy. She cried thru tangled bc of it and said she didn't like it. Although she had no problem watching Bambi when the mom gets shot. That's my Pc girl. : )
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