But I can't help it, I really have to tell you those days do pass in the blink of an eye.
My Bailey turns 10 tonight. I remember my labor, her delivery...it was a long day and a half. I didn't get to see her be born bc they had to put me under, and when I came to I remember desperately trying to pretend I didn't feel like I was about to pass out again. I wanted to hold her and never let go. Ever ever.
And I still don't. I don't want to let go.
I desperately wanted a girl. I joke that God said "alright already!" and signed me up for 2. There is no bigger joy in my life than being a mom. Sometimes I think about how I really glean too much joy from it, because of how much I fear them leaving. I have empty nest issues years before having an empty nest.
Bailey made me a mother, and she has taught me more than I have taught her. I love her so intensely it scares me.
|I blinked and she turned 10.|