I have let this blog fall by the wayside. Sometimes I wonder if I have a touch of ADD - I take on a few things at once, one or two things too many, and then don't finish any of it. I do what I have to do - family matters, MOPS, house stuff. But the projects I start - this blog for instance, organizing the garage, learning how to do new things like selling items online...I just keep procrastinating. I start and then get overwhelmed, so I don't finish. I set high goals for myself in too short of a timespan and then feel guilty when the goals aren't brought to completion, which renders me unmotivated to complete other goals.
Am I the only nutty?
Anyway, with this blog, my mind started to get ahead of itself with what I wanted to do with it. I wanted to be a "contagious Christian" with it, and have my faith be apparent in many posts. I wanted to teach others how to save money. I wanted to journal my experience as a mom with special needs kids, as a way to store memories and growth, and as a tool to encourage others if possible. I wanted to journal my experience as a woman with a lifelong food addiction, and a desire to learn and heal. I started this blog for myself, but after some positive feedback, I started thinking about what it could be for other people. But that's where I faltered - in my desire to help others, the blog became bigger in my mind than just a simple journal, and I put too much expectation on it. I even thought maybe I could become a real "blogger" and make money with it!! Some people do, and I think it's a wonderful way to earn some income while reaching out to others and learning things yourself along the way. What I now realize, is that making the decision to be a "blogger" is at least a part-time if not full-time job to do it successfully, taking discipline, resourcefulness and creativity.
I have realized something about myself. I am a TERRIBLE ball juggler. I just can not do it. I also need to learn some better time management skills.
To that end, I am going to try to maintain this blog more regularly, because I have learned it's important to me. I want to continue, even if it's not daily as I once made a goal for myself. I hope you'll continue reading.
This is why I usually do my regular Friday update/post and an occasional other post when something interesting has happened. And that's all. Life is full.
ReplyDeleteHang in there, my dear. I think you're just human, like the rest of us.