First of all, I want to thank everyone who left me a comment after my last post. I love comments!! Thank you for your encouragement, your words of affirmation. Thank you for receiving me kindly. Thank you also, for being honest with me too - a few comments echoed my thoughts of low self-worth, and it surprised me. I wrongfully assume that just because someone is thin and beautiful, that they are content and happy with themselves. Dear friends, what a tragedy this is. We have these perfectly-put-together bodies designed by God, given to us to use for Him while we are here on Earth, and we mistreat it. Whether physically or emotionally. In my case, both. I think as a parent - if I gave my child something that I made, just for her, perfect for her and I KNEW it - and she stared at it everyday and talked trash, and did things to it that weren't good for it...oh that would hurt my heart.
I bring this up not to make myself feel worse...or to make anyone feel worse. I bring this up because I want to move on from it. I want to look at myself in the mirror and thank God for my able body, for making me how He saw fit. I want to honor Him by good choices, and righteous thoughts. I was thinking of this last night, and here is the Scripture I saw today, posted by a friend on FB. She doesn't know it, but God used her to give a gift to me.
I love it when He does that. He knows I wasn't gonna pick up a Bible this morning - but I was certainly gonna check on my FB peeps. So He showed me what He wanted to show me, in a way He knew I would respond to. Oh, God, I feel the love. Thank you.
Your love is stronger than my weakness. Romans 8:39
Wow. I am going to cling to that Scripture for dear life.
And just in case I had a thick skull, which I sometimes do, this song came on the radio. It is by a Christian singer, JJ Heller.
oh this song speaks to me. I haven't been that boy in the corner, or the woman whose husband has left. But I've been the murderer in jail. No of course I haven't killed anyone, but I have felt imprisoned, and I have desperately cried out to God. Can I hear His words to me? Can I hear it? I haven't been able to before, I haven't felt it. I didn't feel worthy of it, it seemed impossible.
But it's true. My head knows that, I want my heart to feel it.
I am praying we all feel that today. The love of God, which is stronger than any weakness.