Tummy Tuesday

So even though I have a few readers, I started this blog really for myself.  I love writing, I love "venting" on paper.  Easier than handwriting in a notebook.  I have entries I've never published, and a few I have I thought twice about, but wanted to be honest and let it fly.  I figure if I have these feelings, someone else does, and maybe that person needs to read about someone that's just like her.

Here's honest and I'm letting it fly.

I gained .6 at my last meeting.  Not doing so hot here.  When I joined WW I was so pumped up, and had visions of myself shrinking before my very eyes.  And your eyes.  So I am embarrassed to admit to you that I am not losing weight.  Since New Year's I've dropped 5 lbs.  I am happy to have those 5 lbs off, but so far from where I hoped to be by this point.  The worst part is not that my pants are not looser, but how I feel about myself.

Someone who has never struggled with weight is probably wondering, so what's your problem?  You want to lose weight, just do it!  I hear you.  I say it to myself.  

I am going to keep at it though.  I LOVE the Weight Watchers meetings.  I love our leader Kathy, she "gets" it and is so encouraging and wise.  The group is great.  Although I have been lax in the last 2 weeks, this week I have been tracking my points -- even when I have to write down that the peanut butter cookies I ate were probably 4 points each.  Oh but they were fresh out of the oven... I had 2.  With a glass of cold milk.  Yum.

So you can see that this is going to be a very, very long road for me.