So even though I have a few readers, I started this blog really for myself. I love writing, I love "venting" on paper. Easier than handwriting in a notebook. I have entries I've never published, and a few I have I thought twice about, but wanted to be honest and let it fly. I figure if I have these feelings, someone else does, and maybe that person needs to read about someone that's just like her.
Here's honest and I'm letting it fly.
I gained .6 at my last meeting. Not doing so hot here. When I joined WW I was so pumped up, and had visions of myself shrinking before my very eyes. And your eyes. So I am embarrassed to admit to you that I am not losing weight. Since New Year's I've dropped 5 lbs. I am happy to have those 5 lbs off, but so far from where I hoped to be by this point. The worst part is not that my pants are not looser, but how I feel about myself.
Someone who has never struggled with weight is probably wondering, so what's your problem? You want to lose weight, just do it! I hear you. I say it to myself.
I am going to keep at it though. I LOVE the Weight Watchers meetings. I love our leader Kathy, she "gets" it and is so encouraging and wise. The group is great. Although I have been lax in the last 2 weeks, this week I have been tracking my points -- even when I have to write down that the peanut butter cookies I ate were probably 4 points each. Oh but they were fresh out of the oven... I had 2. With a glass of cold milk. Yum.
So you can see that this is going to be a very, very long road for me.